A New Beginning and A Fresh Start

   There are many life changing events and situations that a person goes through that can either break them down or build them back up. I went through one of those at a young age, the last time I wrote I was enduring am injury that changed everything for me. As I mentioned it is my last year of high school and I turning 18 on Friday. For those who do not know, I experienced an injury that in all senses immobilised me, I could not move my leg due to a herniated disk that was pinching my nerve.
  
   During this time I did an extensive amount of soul searching, I questioned everything, even the things that I never thought I would. For example my faith... its difficult going through a period where you loose your faith, the very thing that people are taught to have non questionable and loyal thoughts about. I looked deep within and found that I was empty, and that I was for a long time... I just never admitted it. through this journey, I started to realise fully that I am in control of myself, I started to look for the things that make sense to me instead of having others push their beliefs on me. This started before I got injured, but it wasn't until then that I really started to search. That was all I could do... I had lots of time to sit and reflect, maybe a little too much but now I know who I truly am. Looking back now through the last 7 months, I am grateful that I went through this, there are many people who do not experience what I have, at 17, until they are much older and I am sure that some do not even get the opportunity to while they are alive in this life time.

   In this past year I have switched schools, switched mind sets and made and lost friends. Such is life. Now I am graduating, which I did not think I would this year, I am ecstatic because this is something that I looked forward to for years and thought that it was taken away with my mobility. I learnt how to cut the cord and not take others shit as my own, my true worth, my limits and flaws, I learnt, most importantly that every one is not perfect, that we should not feel ashamed to admit that we need to work at bettering ourselves. It is easy to take the convenient road rather then their own, but the trick is simple, be self and selfless at the same time, say no and yes and always, always remember that no matter who you pray to, you are never alone.

  I no longer waste my time in the past or in my state of delusion of the future because eventually we all realise that if we spend to much time looking backwards or ten blocks ahead of us, we miss the things that are happening in the now. I am overall happy, truly blissful, for the first time in years and that emptiness... its starting to disappear.

  Always remember... Stay Strong!!

   "And that is how change happens. One gesture. One person. One moment at a time."- Libba Bray (The sweet far thing)